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Thursday, March 31, 2011

-Compassvale Secondary School- -2011- Modern dance...

GET A GOLD !!!

Should I be upset or joy ? What we are aiming and hoping for are Gold With Honour . But end up we got a Gold... );

Siqh . What a disappointment ? The dancers cried.. I don't know if it was tears of sorrow or tears of joy . Well, I can see they were actually in tears of sorrow.. But the thing is.. I did not cheer or cry..

I do not have any reaction when the results are annouced .

Am I cold blooded ? Do I even have emotions ??

Or am I already well-prepared for the results ?

Or I don't even care?!!

I was so confused with my feelings .

Then, one of the dance teachers in-charge asked me "bingbing, how do you feel bout the results ?"

I probably know why she asked this question..

The reason might be because I TOTALLY HAVE NO REACTION TOWARDS THE RESULTS! D:

And so, I replied this "Erm...I'm not sure..Or should I say i do not know how to describe my feelings..", after saying, I quickly walked away . (Trying to Run away from any further questions . D:)

Somehow or rather, I know me myself wasn't very happy bout the results .

Because I was hoping for a Gold With Honour ? I didn't really set that high expectation .

It was because I know If expectation was being set so high up, the rate of disappointment will increase .

Meanwhile, I was also trying to convince myself that getting a Gold isn't that easy .

In fact, Getting a Gold is already very Incredible !

But was that a lie to myself ?

I don't know .

Or maybe I should just leave this matter aside .

Whatever has done is already done .

Lets just put the pasts aside and move on to our future . :D

JIAYOUS!

♥our lips must always be sealed

11:04 PM

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Hello . 3 more mins to 4am .
Yes, I'm still not asleep . D:
Hais.. What should I do ??!
I don't even feel like sleeping! )x
Someone save me ~~

♥our lips must always be sealed

3:56 AM

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Hello ! ^-^
Here are my wishlist~
Also can say it's a target or a aim for me ?
haha, it's time to upgrade and update myself ! :D

There goes..

1. Lion Head Dancer
2. Lion Dance Drummer
3. Learn To Dance Hardstyle Shuffle
4. Do Well For My N-Levels
5. MUST Get A Chance To Learn Pole Dance
6. SYF - Get GOLD WITH HONOUR

Currently only these bah .
These are what I wanted to do . :X
Although some of it are a bit ridiculous like.. pole dance ? or drummer?
Haha, I know I myself don't have music talents .
I can honestly say I play music really SUCKS TTM . (:
But, I'll work very hard !
As for pole dance, I have totally no experience bout it .
Mayb I'm just curious and I do find that it is really something interesting .
I wanna give myself a try . (:
Hope all of you can support me ! ^-^

As for this upcoming SYF.. which lies on the 29th March, Next tuesday.. -3more days to go-
I do hope that everyone (CVSS dancers including me) can put in their very own best !
We dance every morning and night..scarifice so much of your time, put in so much efforts, and our tears, blood and sweats.. these CANNOT just Gone Down To The Drains !
We Really Must Give Our Best !
JIAYOUS ! (Y)
I love you guys . You rawks ! Your have really play a big part in my life !
Although lao shi (dance instructor) keep on scolding us like we're some dogs or idiots, but she have her reasons . It's for our own good. (Y)

I think that's all I wanted to share today . See you next time ! (:
Zai Jian ! :D

♥our lips must always be sealed

10:19 PM

Friday, March 11, 2011

My Love Ones.. x3
瑞龙狮艺健身团

bingbing <3

Sweet Sisters <3 (Anna, Jasmine, RuiWen)

♥our lips must always be sealed

11:47 PM

By the way, I've been doing well .
I enjoy my life now, it's full of colours .
It's no longer black and white . (:
I have my close friends , brothers and gan-mama .
They bring colours to my life, and make me cherish the things around me everyday .
I broke up with him long ago, though I've never mention bout him at all for these years .
Maybe this is the best solution and will make things easy for us to do .
Currently I never thought of accepting another relationship .
It's not easy to fall for someone and forget someone you really love..
Single is the best ! :D
Lets just concentrate on our work and studies !
As well as do our very best for the upcoming SYF !
I know it's very tiring/exhausting and unbearable, but dancers, lets pull it through ! Alright !? :D
Anyway, I've quited th kiddy art job during the end of Jan . (:
Besides this, I'm still in contact with my lion dance troupe .
The 1st - 15th Chinese new year days are not easy, haha !
During that time I was struggling with time management and body stamina .
Bai Nian, CCA, Lion Dance, Studies, ART, Lacking of Sleep, etc ..
That time was really GG for me .
My family members do not know I joined lion dance, and I never want them to know .
Even they knew it, I will deny it no matter what .
Because I know they will disapprove it..
Playing Lion dance is one of my passion and hobby/interest .
I don't want to give up on it ..
So during the bai nian, i actually "sneaked" out and went for chu shi .
My brother and mum suspected me, but what can I do ?
I have to deny everything no matter what .
I lied to get what I want .
Actually what's wrong bout lion dance ?
Why does so many people disapprove me of playing it ?
Is it because I'm a girl ?
Can't a girl play lion dance ?
Seriously I'm very curious luh..
But bo bian lah, I just love it, and no one is going to stop me . .__.
Anyway I joined Lion Dance since last year, which is 18 June 2010..
hahas! it's going to be my one year in there ! ^^
As for my CCA during new year days..
I have to skipped it for couple of practices . D:
Oh damn it~ laoshi get so fed up of me and I almost kicked out from the syf.
Laoshi knew I was in lion dance.. but I can't tell her that i went for chu shi and not going for her practice, if I were to tell her this, I'l be in hot soup ! Dx
So I lied again..
I told her I have a fever, cough, flu and sore eyes .
laughs, out of these examples, only sore eyes and cough was the true one .
But still, I was scolded until very jialat.. -.-
Aiya, anyway who cares lah... it's over now. (:
During the new year days, I looked very shagged and tiredd..due to the lack of sleep and over active . ==
But the days were really pretty fun and thrilling after overcome so many problems . :D
I learnt many things too . haha . (:
Alright, lets talk bout now or the most recently ones?
I actually went to Malaysia with the lion dance troupe for Yew Keng .
My family doesn't knows bout it . But my friends do .
I had a great time there. (:
Going abroad with friends is one of my wish~
It's now fulfilled ! :p
As for now.. My plans is to study hard, play hard, and work hard !
I know N-level is around the corner , but I'm BROKE!
SO ! I'm looking for a job again!
I know it's not the right time..but I have no choice .
I really need money, and I spent almost all of my money . ):
I'll try to balance my studies as well . (:
I think that's all i have to say ?
Goodbye . =)

Nothing is gonna change my mind..
I finally know what I want..
This is my life.
If anything bad happens, I'll take the responsibility .

♥our lips must always be sealed

10:34 PM

I think I've Given up On Blogging,

Now Catch Me On Facebook ! :D

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10:28 PM

Saturday, October 9, 2010

this time really G.G for me.. hais ..
so stress..
need time management . ):
having bad headache these days . argh ! Dx

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12:33 AM

Saturday, September 25, 2010

HELLO READERS !
I'm back ? Haha, maybe i'll gone MIA again . :X
As you all know, EOY exams is coming very soon.
So please STUDY HARD !! :D
Time is precious ! Must cherish it, okay ? x)
These months, as usual, i've been attending to school having those boring yet meaningful lessons, attending to CCAs and those programs which school have prepared for us , hanging out with friends and went to lion dance .
Another news to share !
I've quited Student Council Board .
I find it totally useless and wasting of time although they really taught me alot , but sometimes they want us to do alot of craps . Awww -.-
Actually Student Council gave me a lot of benefits and privilege nah, but I don't think is necessary to have it, I just want to be a normal student .
Which I don't have to keep running away from those teachers and have to see their face every single day.
I don't like teachers treated me differently compared to those normal students .
I find it very UNFAIR !
sometimes i did something wrong, teachers would say something like, I'm a student council, I should be more responsible and set good example for the rest of the students .
I just wanna say I AM A HUMAN TOO . Human makes mistake . Isn't it? -.-
Ohhhs, forget it. It's already over yea . I don't give a damn bout it anymore . (:
and yes ! 1st September is the teachers' day !
I didn't went visit the Edgefield Primary . How sad ! D;
I miss my Ex-TEACHERS ! DD;
I hope they miss me too . xD
As awaiting for the Teachers' Day celebration to come, my friends (classmates) and I are going to dance on the actual day for our beloved teachers .
Cool, isn't it ?
No matter is the dance wonderful or not, the efforts and hearts we put in it matters .
Well, I hope the teachers would love it . =)
During teachers' day, i was busy and i'm unable to meet Mdm Pang and Mr Lim . ):
But i hope they are enjoying during the teachers' day . (:

29Aug, I went to swimming .
Well, I already that tanned, and i still went to swimming, can't believe my skin tone right now, uh ? xD
I'll try to use whitening lotion, Stay tuned yea !
NO MORE saying me BLACK ! :D

30Aug, the school is taking us to the F1 racing site and have a look at it .
As well as teaching us things about hospitality . (:
I didn't had much fun over there . As it was TOO BORING ! :X

During the August, I went to visit the Ice-Skating with my sweetheart too ! I had a lot of fun there . xP
I'm looking forward to my next trip over there with my sweetheart or girlfriends ! x33

Will blog again, have to go right now.
See you again , I miss you ! (:

♥our lips must always be sealed

4:33 PM